I'm facing a mismatch of technology skill right now HAHAHA!
Damn, it sure feels weird coming back to my old blog after decades! Laughing at how immature and silly i sounded back then when i was still at my oblivious just-turned-teen years. (At least 3 years ago i guess)
Oh well, try'na figure out how to edit my blogpage now. Can't believe i used to be such a pro at editing blog. Now I'm a complete idiot. Haha, just give me some time.

(Handle me with care, because once i'm gone, i am gone. I would never think of returning to you.)


School is miserable, i failed math, i failed combine humans, i failed POA. Although all the subjects i failed by 2 or 3 marks, I am still losing hope. Because i had never failed so many subjects before. Despite the fact that i used to get distinction for my POA, I am actually failing it now! Grrr.

I am still depressed over the matter that i can't afford the dress i saw at River Island that day! It was selling at the price of $85, that dress was gorgeous man! :@

Nothing great is happening........

Just two more days, and it shall be my baby, ;*

"It takes a loss before you found it,"

Something had been troubling me recently, personally, i think it's really sad to see two close friends drifting away from each other. I hope i could come up with a solution and help as soon as possible. Please grant me the wisdom!

Weather had been really warm, so warm that it rises up to 35 degrees Celsius. I think this year is going to be the hottest year over the past few decades. Or perhaps, hitting a higher temperature each day. And i had always hated hot weathers, i prefer rainy days.

I've seen my term one results for Chinese and P.O.A. It's disappointing... However, i feel kind of contented with my English and Science results. Of course, I'd definitely seek for improvements and aim to achieve better grades. I had set myself a new resolution for this month again.
1)Wake up earlier and reach school earlier.
2)Bring homework home to complete by the next day.
3)Revise for my tests.
Speaking about test, I'll be having Math and English test tomorrow. I think math won't not be a big problem, as i could still manage it fair. As for English, i have not start memorizing the format for report writing! And i'm not good at report writing, i can't handle the part where we have to elaborate the bullets given well.Grrr.

March holiday is coming, i am kind of looking forward the Co-Curricular Activities school camp, but partially not. Looking forward as the seniors will be joining us, i really miss them. Furthermore, i am going to experience being the Main Instructor for the first time, i hope it's gonna be an unforgettable one. The other half that i'm not is because that i have to sacrifice few days of my holiday.

Anyway, i love spending time with my sis. Only with her, i could feel the closeness and sister-ship between us. I think she's totally pure and innocent and true. I suddenly felt so blessed having her as a god-sister, after a year of knowing each other, i still find that it's impossible-to-have conflicts between us. Love her to the max.

I'd rather fall on you, because i don't want to fall for you.

My vegetable computer is officially out of it prison! Thank god!

I clearly know that I have not been updating my blog, so i guess nobody is bothered to come and read my blog as often as before already. Right, i deserved that. That's one thing, another thing which is i am still exhausted as before, or perhaps i feel even more tired right now. I have been falling asleep quite easily once i lie my head comfortable and close my eyes. Damn, this is not bringing me anywhere.

School have been quite happening for me out there, a lot of things had happened recently. And my emotions are stirred. I am somehow puzzled. For one time, i thought that i had found someone whom i can totally trust, love and hang out like common close-friends does. But i guess, i am too wrong. She's absolutely turning her back on me, despite the fact that we did had fun together for a short period of time. And a really truth felt. I know i am silly. How on earth would a bird give up it's own wonderful wings and join me for a swim? Like, really.
I couldn't be bothered anymore.

Apparently my studies are dropping and shooting at the same time. But for one thing i can be very confirmed and sure that my POA result is dropping! I can no longer achieve A1 for my POA anymore, I am currently scoring a B4 for it. Fuck shit. I am really mad, and disappointed with myself. I should buck up. Argh!!

I can't believe this is actually happening, i am afraid i am going to fall in love again. This is driving me crazy, and i never never never want it to happen. If it does, it's gonna be the biggest joke for the year. Gosh.

I have numerous of items in my buy-list carter right now. I want to get that bag, dress, heels from F21, that revealing-back dress from Topshop, that outfit from Pull and Bear, that awesome purse from River Island, that sexy printed leggings seen everywhere. Should i get the laced hair band? I can't go for shopping, till i get the ipod touch/ ipod nano/ ipod classic that i want. Shit, i am super indecisive. I can't pick what i want without having a real fussy consideration. But i guess this sounds familiar to most of you, this is human. Perhaps more often on the girls. Hehe.  

Gossip Girl's novel had became my addiction. I can never get enough of it.
xoxo, I like it that way.

P.s. Alicia keys is superb-gorgeous looking for an African, she is way toooo hot! I love her face, her song and her.

"Sometimes the only solution is to escape and run away, sometimes you might feel better breaking down and cry for all you want, sometimes the best thing for you is to know nothing."

I'm at the state of being vexed..

(Saturday)

I would actually end up spending the chinese new year eve alone if I did not went out. I wanted to join sis and her family for the reunion dinner, but never mind, i called too late. Because they had a really early one at 5pm, i think. So it wasn't a bad thing still, at least we could spend sometime together outside. Knowing that all the stores outside today are closed, but we still insist on going to great world to try our luck. Unfortunately, it was closed. So we headed to China town, it was damn crowded, at the same time felt kind of irritated when people are so sweaty and sticky touches you and pushes you, ew feel nauseated thinking about it. After that, we transported to Tiong bahru via train. Got a cup of Iced double chocolate at Coffee bean, frankly I think Mac Cafe's double chocolate tastes better. But I can't deny that Coffee bean's marsh mallows were awesome. I can't believe sis took more than half an hour to finish her Hot double chocolate, gosh. Afterwards it as only 10.30pm, so we went to sat down at Tiong park and chat til 11.35pm and we went home. Feeling kind of sleepy and tired right now. Yay, tomorrow is Chinese new year! Steamboat and Redpackets, here i comeeee. Muahaha.

Anyway, I did not managed to buy the nails extension and polish I want today. Grrrrrrr, so depressing. I gave up my long nails for basket ball, :(. Forget it, ah, i almost forgot. The same group of company went for basketball yesterday from 3.30pm to 8.30pm. Yeah, we have great stamina. Well at first the courts were full, so we have some random match with some random people. And there was this indian, she was kinda rowdy. At first I was holding on the ball, then she accidentally claw on my boobs. Then, she kneed into my leg causing a huge bruise on my legs now. (It's like almost about 3-4cm circumference size, no kidding.) Lastly, the most outrageous part one was she somehow knocked onto me and i sprained my ankle. Damn pain la.

Whoa, it's actually 1.13am already. No wonder I am feeling sleepy. Alright, good night readers and a happy Chinese New Year and Valentine Day to all of you out there. :)

It's been 5 days since i last posted. I miss blog, and I am obsessed with 'Hi, my sweetheart' right now. So, I guess I won't be updating so often like everyday. Haha. I just want to remind everyone of you out there, I am still Szeman!! I have never change, I am still the same, absolutely same. Maybe a little more mature, deep and experienced. Stronger in both mentality and physically as well, perhaps.

I attended the CNY rehearsal today, everything was a full waste of time to me. I don't like rehearsal like such. I hated it. I find that it was so draggy, and we did get to practise much and neither did we tried on our costume for the whole purpose of 'full-dress' rehearsal thingy. I bet none of us are fully prepared for the near approaching Friday which will arrived in less than 2 days. Forget it, I don't want to talk about it. CCA really suck without the joking seniors, I don't like it. I don't like the atmosphere of those despises and cold glares.

Anyway, I caught 13 in uniform today. Neat and smart-looking, at the same time hot as ever! But I would prefer him in jersey though. I admire the blond hair and the pretty eyes of his. I don't know why I'll smile when i see him each time. Sheeze, I love soccer matches. (L) By the way, Shan wen and myself went to stuff our stomach with Ikea's hotdogs just now. I never get sick of the hotdogs there, the curry puffs are awesome I can say.

And I love this week so far. I went to hit the gym with Mandy, Jiawen and Shirley at Mandy's apartment on Monday. I ran 2.5km, and burned a sum of calories. Woohoo. But I had more fun on Tuesday, because it was my first time playing Basket-Ball. (But not my first time shooting the balls into the basket and touching them, of course!) Unfortunately, I was a fool enough to keep long nails and went to play basketball without cutting them off. So as a result of it, my pinky's nail came off. But not the whole thing though. It bled, but I did not care after i cut it off and went on with the game with Brenzen, Shirley, Jingyu, Ben and Wenbin. It was really an enjoyable day, especially the 'Horse' game. Haha! So funny. Honestly, I am anticipating for the next basketball day. Hehe.

I should exercise more, I don't want to look fat in my new clothes for CNY! Stop eating!
I must buck up on my studies, I've been failing many subjects. It is so depressing thinking about it. Sigh. Secondary 4 life suck, as usual. It dreads thinking of how horrible and miserable secondary 5 life would be next year. Yes, I have faith that I could make it to Sec 5. If I don't, I guess I can go eat shit and die.

xoxo, charging to 'Hi, my Sweet heart.'

P.s. I know life suck, but, smile people! :) Imagine everbody smiling on the street, it would be really great!

(This time is different from before, we bid farewell, on the other hand, i become more wild.)

RE: Today is a-w-e-s-o-m-e!

Oh man, today was so fun. Despite the rain which actually ruined the partial of our plan. It doesn't matter. After school dismissal, took bus 51 with Mandy, jiawen, kumar and tong together. It was a super long bus trip journey travelling from queenstown to west coast. After we reached our destination, jiawen went back home to get something. So me and Mandy went to the market for lunch, after that jiawen came to find us. It started raining heavily while we were waiting for 175 to head to mandy's new house. We alighted at the wrong stop, so we have to walked without shelter. Halfway through, jiawen abandoned us behind and rush t open the gate. Mandy and I was chasing after her behind. We reached the apartment, we were planning to go up to Mandy's house but jiawen insisted on staying downstairs and wait. (Tsk, this girl with awesome boobs and ass is so stubborn)  So a funny scenario happened,
SM : (Dragging JW into the lift)
JW: (Struggled back) Whoa! Why are you so strong?
SM : Hahaha! If not i not called Szeman already.
It may not sounds funny, until you watch the whole dramatic scene. By the way, Mandy's house was really awesome. I love her house, although it may not be the best house I've ever seen, but it's so god damn beautiful. After wandering around, we went back down to changed into our bikini and conquered the swimming pool. After that it started to rain heavily again, we were shivering by cold at the pool. Until we could not take it anymore, we decided to run to the steam room and abandoned our belongings on the poolside under the umbrella with some relax chair. Sauna was great, it was extremely hot, i actually felt a burnt on my leg man. And the steam totally blurred the room, hardly see anything. And I felt damn idiotic, like jiawen said, we were actually eating chips and slimming down in the sauna, that don't make a difference!

After which, we relaxed at the relax chair for few hours. Halfway through, there was an entertainment by a few jokers who were playing with their friend's slipper. And they made a scene of themselves, one of them actually dropped into the pool as he lost his balance causing by the force of strength his friend pushed him. It was extremely funny. Then, we actually had a girls' talk session. It was so fun and nice talking to them about that topic, and we seemed so absorbed into it. HAHA!

Mandy and I had our dinner together, we took the same bus home. Ended up reaching home at 10pm. Well, today was just, awesome. But sun tanning would be even better, too bad the weather wasn't great. I'm looking forward to our next swimming session together. Hahahaha. Fridays is going to be interesting. Woohoo!

I am exhausted.

"Sheding tears isn't my material,".

Shoot, yesterday was an absolute chaos! My poor foots are suffering from blisters! Argh... Now i finally know the reason why are there really inexpensive heels and expensive heels, all of them pay for a price! Anyway, yesterday was a really disappointing day for my sis and myself. At first, we met at Tiong bahru's MRT then we set off to Hougang and met her god-bro, he drived us to the hair-salon which my sis recommended me to cut at. So i have my hair-cut over there, the hairstylist was indeed marvellous. He sounded really professional like how sis described. Haha, you guys should have a hair-cut there as well. Because he is really an expert. I actually planned on doing waves for my hair, but it costs S$185 including treatments, but i was unaffordable for it. Grr.

So after we had our haircuts, her god-bro drove us back to Hougang Station then we took the train to Dohby Ghaut to purchase her perfumes. Afterwards, we head to Suntec City for shopping, sis bought a blazer at a really great price at New Look, she must be as happy as a lark right now. Then we took bus 10 to Vivo city, shopped around but couldn't find the dress which i am looking for. Unfortunately for us, there is no bus service to Great world city, so we cabbed there instead. It was so depressing that our effort were fruitless, because i don't the dress i wanted there as well. So in the end we sat down to get an iced chocolate at Mac Cafe to comfort ourselves. As we felt rather frustrated because our foots ached like mad.

We left Great world city and took bus back to sis's home for steamboat. We talked about random stuffs on the bus, and suddenly thought of going Ion Orchard. We gotten so fed up about it. Because there are much more outlets and even larger ones in Ion! Grr, so we will be going there this coming Sunday again. Sigh...

That's all about yesterday, what bad luck, so terrible. Forget it. After school dismissal today, waited for Jiawen as she was taking her math test. Then we set off to IKEA to grab some food with Jiawen, Mandy, Roland and Billie. Afterwards we head back to school to watch the soccer match versus Bermadeer (Correct me if i am wrong). It was a tied 3-3, sad to say the guy from the other school broke his leg during the match, it was a total calamiy for such a thing to happpend. I hope that guy is alright, because he seems to be badly injured from the way he screamed painfully. It was so serious that ambulance were called. Goodness.

I have to rush my POA homework already, peace!

(I just want to say, i am soooooooooooooooooooo tired!)

Hello, today is a super unpleasant day for me. I don't understand why must my picture appear in the school magz, sheeze man. Everybody are teasing me right now. Hahahaha, but i think it's rather funny! Another calamity was when Kendrick happened to be throwing some disgusting bread in a plastic bag, and it hit my forehead, purposely or not it hurts! Anyway, i can't believe Camden actually made me smile at my worst in class today. For the first time, i feel that all baddie guys are turning to be someone really nice and caring. People who are like Ben and Kumar as well. :)

I swear at the bottom of my heart, i feel very tired! Like literally, tired. I cannot emphasize on how tired i am at this point of time. After CCA, i actually walked home as i was too lazy to dig out my wallet from my bag, my bag was freaking heavy by the way. I hesitated to go home straight, i walked rounds and rounds along the road behind my house's bus-stop. My mind have million of thoughts running, makes me feel so tired and lost. And so i sat down at the staircase of the over-head bridge, appreciating the natures of life. I think it's such a waste if you happened to have a bad eye-sight. Because the beautiful scenery you see isn't as accurate as it is. I think Eyes is the most beautiful camera on earth.

I am so tired that i fainted on my bed immediately when i lie on it.

Bolognese spaghetti, it looks like curry spaghetti here. Haha.Sheeze man, i am hungry and conditioning right now!I love this girl here, (L).Chocolate fondue!!!! I loved it!Things which i bought.I bombz my POSB card! Awww....This card cost $50, how great.You receive discounts in these selected outlets only, :)

This song is best dedicate to someone i know, click here to listen to it.
Here's the lyics :

Ahhhh! Flunked again! The most ridiculous thing which is, i have been memorizing very hard on my SS's Source based essay in the beginning of this week. Like every night before i sleep, and keep writing it... And omfgzzzz, i just realized that i was actually memorizing on 'IMPACT OF THE CONFLICT' and not 'CAUSES OF CONFLICT'. I think i am freaking blind, don't know what the hell is wrong with me. Hell, and end up screwing my social studies paper today. I was so god damned bloody confident about the Source based esssay, and it ended up to be a catastrophe. Forget it, paper have already took. Can't rewind time.

Anyway, after my test went to find Jiawen, Mandy and kumar at the canteen. We chat for awhile, after that went to the field to watch the soccer match of Home vs. St. Gab. First time i was so engaged with a soccer match... It was quite disappointing that we lost 0-3. And the sun was shining horribly bright, was feeling super hot and irritated by it.

I am still attracted by 13's eyes. Goodness. It's smokin' hot, to me at least.

I have flunked 2 papers... I really can't be bothered anymore. 2 more papers to go, i still have not revise for my Geography, i think getting into through-train is a fat hope for me right now. I won't be surprise if i happen to get a single digit for my Physic paper, it was very badly done. I swear.

I feel so busy, and busy makes me feel so tired. Life seems to be so happening for me at this moment. I have a lot of upcoming task to prepare for, such as through-train exam, chinese dance upcoming 3 performances, this sunday discussion meeting (emcee for the day), upcoming SYM concert, upcoming YOG dance practices, followed by August YOG. Gosh, and then 'N' will arrive. June or somewhere near there is prelim already, time is running, even every words which i type now counts! Goodness.

I hope to get the answers to all the questions running in my mind right now. What is going to happen next, does not matter anymore. How i want it to happen, how do i want it to conclude, is what i am concern of.

Same situation, same mood, same perception : I am really needy right now; i need a hug badly, i need someone to hear me spills out my grumbles, i need someone to cheer me up and say something really sweet to me, i need someone to offer me a candy and a really (sweet) one, i just need a little time on my own to reflect. I felt like as if i have abandoned my torch light in a complete gloomy and dark place, and now i am lost in direction, lost in purpose, so aimless. This obstacle is all about independence and courageous, i am willingly taking this challenge up alone whole-heartedly. And i meant, alone. I just need some time, practically, just yet.

IF YOU'RE 555 THEN IMMA 666!

I was completely overwhelmed by some shits which i found out. Damn. Was so overwhelmed that i was all passionate burning 'hot' for the whole day. I behaved very differently today, i felt like the old past me. Where my screwed up attitude start to possessed into my body, which nobody could stop me. But i guess this must be the effect after tolerating and enduring some shitty stuffs. I have been pushed to quite near my limit already, you guys just pray hard that it won't rise up anymore.

Anyway, i pushed myself a lot during PE lesson today. Especially for the first two rounds. After that i was completely exhausted, i am certain that it is the cause of this morning consumption of medicine with an empty stomach. I was god damned giddy and almost fainted on the spot. But fortunately i did not.

I am still laughing over the matter where mandy and jiawen fell today. HAHA! There is more to go tomorrow, oh my god. Second round of harassment fight! I hope mandy is alright, because she injured her leg somehow from the fell.

I wanna express it out! But who could i turn to? A fact i found out, is equilibrium to a knife stabbing into me. So tell me, why would i not feel difficulty in breathing?

Wow, in the first place how do you even know that i am talking about you? I could be talking about someone else. What makes you think that it is you since you didn't did all these shits? Alright, cut this short.

Firstly, yeah i admit i don't have enough time to spend with him. Does this means that you get to spend the time which i don't have, with him? Isn't your job as a friend was to tell me that i should spend some time with him more? Go out with poh ee and yi ray so what? If you tell someone that, they will just think it is a double date. Be contented enough because i didn't think that way in the very first place.
Secondly, saying "i am the one..." Rather than "She is the one..." then call not pushing blame. Thirdly, you lied to me say it was you who called Camden to watch the movie, i take it as nothing happened already despite the fact that it wasn't you.
Fourthly, you do not expect me to believe you once you have lied to me. Take it as you are innocent, you didn't asked him to call you. And he is the one who called you, that does not matter still because you are still to be found guilty for not holding firm to what your very own decision was. You are just telling me that you needed him so much that you have to cop out on your own decision, or are you indirectly telling me that you are a more preferable choice than me?
Well lastly, what benefit will you get? Nothing, but freedom that you used to be pleading for. But this is what you want too, don't think i don't know. How many times have i, poh ee and shirley told you that you should know your own limit and not talk to him at late time on phone? But you just wouldn't listen, you did it over and over again. Was it on purpose? Or it was all accidents? I think it is pretty obvious.

You said you know you are at fault, then shouldn't you be feeling guilty and come to apologise? I think i may think of forgiving you, but i guess it is not necessarily. In your eyes, you think everything you does are your fault and no one think you are good. But in my eyes, i think you always remember what bad things people remember about you instead of the good one. Even before everything started, you are all wholeheartedly to hold firm to defend everything i said that you did. You think i am being too petty and not understanding. But make this clear, you are the one who is not understanding among all. You never thought of how would i feel when you get so close with someone i loved, you never count how long have i been tolerating with my loved one being shared with, you never imagine that i would have these decisions. Not one have you ever expected, have you? If you are purely sorry, why would you have the mood to feel fucked up? Have you even thought of all these, miss understanding?

My aim is not to haggle with you or what ever. You should know, everybody knows, as long as you want to argue with me, i will definitely retaliate. Because i don't think you are the sufferer here.

Another thing, i am not accusing you for being two-face when you did so many things which turns you to be one. Acting as a Anonymous in tagboards, and lying to achieve somebody's care and sympathy. You know, you will not think it is easy to use which angle to think of you once you were to step in my shoe after knowing the bad deeds you did.

Think about it... Contradict or Truce? You still have a choice and a chance.

And most importantly, the objective here is all about your Personality which is Hidden in you.

Goodness, may i state a life's most ridiculous lie ever?! Well well, here is a story, i confessed to somebody that i will never talk on phone with that particular person and never get so close with that person again, after that just the next day i ask that person out and some other days later i requested the person to call me because i was watching some horror movies. Oh no, when that somebody found out, right, the most i can just say i didn't call that person it was him who called me. Haha. So i got nothing to do with it, it's just him who called me. And her fault for misunderstanding that the problem occur in me.

TOTALLY THRASH! WHAT A JEST SERIOUSLY?! What kind of person who will think of such hilarious idea? Sounds extremely two face. A mistake committed, just admit. What's wrong? I think this is really pathetic though, acting all innocent and pushing the blame to others. Well, look i ain't like you, i learn from my mistake and i will admit. I don't push blame to others. That will only turn you more shameless.

I shall not emphasize further on such ludicrous issue, damn it. Right people? I will never start something, when you don't. And i only continue if you go on with it first.

That was really disappointing, i know. Let's talk about some sanguine stuffs! Yeah, yesterday was really funny. My sis was supposed to meet me at my house downstair by 11am so that we can go for the YOG audition together, but i called her phone for like 20 times, but it can't reach through, so i went down the bus stop to check whether she have already reach or not. But i don't see her, then i start to feel kind of worried so i decided to walk to her house. I knocked on to the door and her grandpa answered, i was awestruck when he told me that she was still sleeping. Haha. It was really silly, here is our conversation on the phone at the night before that day we meet.
Me : "Okay, let's meet at 11am tomorrow."
Sis : "Okay, eh you sure you can wake up or not?"
Me : "Yeah can la, you just be punctual tomorrow ok!"
Sis :"Sure, i surely will."
Me: "Are you sure?"
Sis :"Very sure, confirm."

And, look what happen in the end. HAHA!

After our audition, we head to Great world to collect our ticket at 2.30pm, after that we watched Avatar but this time was in 3D version with my sis. I think the effect was great, but i still prefer the non-3D version, the vision is better such as the colourings and all. Haha. And the theme song is nice, I see you By Leona Lewis. By time we finished the movie it was already 9.30pm, so we went home early for the sake of school today.

Well school today was super cumbersome, it was raining heavily in the morning, was freezing and i was covered tightly by my blanket, makes me don't feel like getting up from my bed. Haha, met shirley at the bus-stop then we walked to school together just like last time we used to do. Both morning and afternoon assembly today was rather boring. Lessons was okay because shirley and myself were entertaining with each other. Haha! I really love it when Karen Chong is one of our teacher, :). (Inside joke)

Hey, i am back from my absence! This week have been really happening. Activities like joining this year flint batch 7 for a total of 8 training sessions, went to church with roland, jiawen, pea, kendrick, shirley, weilin and jiaquan. Spent the christmas night at home with my sis to drink tequila, and i felt guilty over letting her drink few shots. Because she vomitted. Awww... But i was very giddy too. And CCA meetings, outing with poh ee, shirley and see teng. And many more upcoming events, tomorrow's bbq at florence condo, flint on the 2nd, YOG audition coming this sunday, and then school reopens. Gosh, it's a tragic. Because i haven't complete my homework! Maths!!! I abandoned my Chinese homework at one corner already, and yeahhh a small round of applause for myself completing Chemistry homework. Haha. Shit la, I still have like 13-15 exercises to go. I did 2 or 3 exercises today, and i hope i will be hardworking enough to key in Homework into my schedule. Ah, whatever.

Today is the 31st December, i think this post is going to be long, because i really do have many thoughts in mind which i wanna use blog to express all out. While waiting for my sis, damn i am quite pissed now though. She said she would come at 2pm, but now it's like 7pm already. Never mind i am partially not mad because she have reason. Alright...

Few more hours til the clock hit 00.00. I think this year had been a great year despite so many obstacles. Stuffs like handling break ups, late for exam, frenemies, getting into through train, boot camp, losing friends and blablabla. Honestly, i am upset. But no wait, i am still very glad that i have found a wonderful, fabulous, amazing friend like Bay Wei Lin, and we are so close and deeply in love with each other that we became sisters. Haha! And I am totally grateful that i am going to have a friend whom i know for 10 years like Shirley, many things happened but we never fall apart and she have always been there for me when i needed a listening ear. Next. Although it was my decision to let go 2 of my wonderful best friends used to be like Tiffany and Estee, i never forget about them til now. I still reminiscence alot of things about us when we used to spend time together and reading back the pounds of letters we used to wrote to each other. (I think i will be writting essays if i have to write about these 4 peoples, so i guess better not.)

Next, i met some really nice classmates/friends like Jing Yu, Alex, Jia Quan, Leong, Soo Jin, See Teng, Poh Ee, Kumarran and Jiawen.

First of all, thanks jiawen for spending your time with me to eat lunch with me after our EOF papers, and shared stuffs with me.

Well, kumarran is a guy who really cheered me up on my birthday, by saying all those nice compliments and saying how much he have to buy a birthday present for me. I appreciated it.(My birthdate* this year wasn't a memorable one.)

Jia Quan taught me math, and shared his seat with me when some scumbag took my chair away while i was away, he is a very nice boy who always likes to SWING. Haha! Anyway, i experienced my first time going church through him.

Right, next will be Leong. I don't know much about him, but i know he is quite a funny guy whose patterns more than Badminton! HAHA! And he is one of the caring person who cares alot for his friends and protect his siser and also a nice guy who offered us to use his passion card when we go for badminton.

Alex is a super mean fella with his super straight forward trait, but he is still kind and friendly in his way. And hey, i am going to reveal a secret about him. His voice sounds very sexy when he say 'Baby..' HAHA! Opps, i think i am going to get killed. Yes he is also smart and kind enough to ask us out to the library to study together for exam. Haha.

JingYu! Haha, almost forgot his name. I think he is my closest friend among the guys. He's been a very nice friend who always teaches us homeworks. And always so steady for badminton. LOL! He is very nice to joke with and funny. My game master who always intro games to me to cure my boredom. Lol!

Soo Jin is not really a new friend i met though, I known her since primary 5. Haha. She is still as shy as before and yet still as nice as before. Thanks for all the chocolates,sweets, My idol's picture you offered me. I think i am like treating her as if my younger sister in class, i never liked seeing people who disturb her in class and do nothing. And she is also someone who accompany me when i am a fresh newcomer in the Chinese Dance.

Poh Ee is the most intelligent girl and accumulate the strongest mentality person i have ever met. She's been like a mother to me, oh no, i am not trying to say her old. But she is really too caring and strict at time. But her voice is super sharp and made her sounds bitchy from far. I think thats the reason mostly people dislike about her.

See Teng have been a wonderful friend who spends alot of effort and thoughts for my birthday. A friend who never give me up despite how mean i mistreated her and all. Accompanying me for lunch/dinner and times whereby i was alone. But still, i am deeply sorry to mention this. I really hate it when she have no limit for getting so close with my exboyfriend and lied to me before.

And lastly a person whom i really owed an apology which can never be solved easily after saying sorry. Although we are through, but my feelings are still there. I know i made a really selfish decision, i don't mind if you hate me for that. I really think this is a better way to everything. I don't wish to be a burden, i have been tolerating for few months. It's really pointless. Now that you have your freedom, you can chat on phone, go out and go to someone's house with whoever you likes at anytime. Another reason for this, i don't want to get disracted from lessons as well. Well, i shan't go further, it's personal by the way. :)

Toodles, and have a prosper new year!

Those who failed to accomplish your goals today, don't worry. There is always a tomorrow. A new day, a new year to turn into a new leaf. I wish everybody successful in the future. Losing is steps to winning and success. Giving up are true losers.

But hey, don't get over stressed up over wealth, fame and glories. Being healthy is when you achieved absolute happiness. Take care.

Hey readers! Apology on not uploading... Okay let's talk about Thursday, because it was a rather rush day for me. Wake up and had my breakfast and all then went to school to collect my Textbooks with my mum. After that the staff briefed alot on the FAS scheme to me. After we collected, went to NTUC to buy breakfast with my mum. Went home at 2pm, go back and have a shower then rush to Great world to catch Avatar with my mum and sec bro. YEAH! AVATAR ROCK TRUST ME! I think it is the greatest movie i've ever watch in my life, yo. Really..

I am gonna catch a 3D version of it with my friends someday. Haha. Once again, i am officially broke. Grrrr... It's irritating me seriously. Okay, back to topic. Well after the movie went to Vivo to walk around with my mum while waiting for my sis to come and look for me. We took bus to TBSC at around 7.30. Chanted, and practiced our dance steps for the performance at GM this coming sunday. Which is tomorrow, goodness. So after that we went to Harbourfront for KFC. I am in love with the new black pepper chicken flavour! Loves loves. Haha.
So, now that i have received my sec 4 mathematics counts book. I gotta mug for my homework. I was super hardworking yesterday. I spent like almost 8 hours on my maths homework. So i already done from Exercise 6A to exercise 6J now. It was totally insane man! Check this out :
(The markings are for me to take note for incomplete questions.)

But i still have the mood to camwhore. LOL!

Hello readers, i know i haven't been updating again. Past two days went for gm's dance rehearsal at SYC on sunday and TBSC last night. Today went out for Badminton. I am feeling very sleepy now... Grr. Tomorrow going play badminton again. Haha. Thursday will be going school to collect my textbooks and all then at night will be going TBSC for dance rehearsal. Haha. Sunday will be the performance for General Mtg. Gonna groove the whole hall and blast the hall with laughters(Inside joke with Weilin) HAHA!

Another thing, i am so in love with the new mouse now.

Hey blogpers. Went out with my sis to Vivo to help her eye on clothes yesterday. Shop in every single clothes and shoes shop in Vivo and Harbour Front. In the end sh bought a dress at Pull and Bear and heels from DMK. I can't wait for our shopping spree in January, its gonna be a wild one. Haha.



Sony Cybershot! Roar! It's approximately around S$300 to S$400, correct me if i am wrong. Shit, i better stop eyeing on stuffs. I have lots of lots of lots of things to buy right now. Sportswear, Swimwears, Tops, Bottoms, Heels, Bags, Shoes, Camera, N97, still counting! Counting...........................................................................................................................

I hate it when my phone is down with low balance, i wonder when can i make my next top up. Forget it. Well yesterday went out with my family for dim sum. After that went home change and get my movie pass with my bros. Took bus 139 to The Cathay to meet mum, after that watched 2012. Afterwards dine in a hong kong cafe, and went home at 9pm.

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N97 mini!!! I want to get this phone and this colour! I dont think my mum allow me to sign contract, and so i have to wait until i saved up to S$900.................... Grr. Anyway, i am still considering N97 mini and Blackberry Bold. But i guess most likely i would want a N97 mini. (Stop spending your money on junks! Must control!)

(I love Katy Perry! Officially my idol.)

Rain, rain i love raining days.

Went for discussion meeting at TBSC yesterday at 1, after that went to Vivo with my mum for lunch. After lunch my mum went home and i waited for sis at 1st floor. We shopped around Vivo hoping to find something that i want to buy. But nothing caught my eyes. So we went to Bugis street, and managed to bought a jeans shorts. Walked to Iluma for yogurt ice cream, it taste very nice but quite expensive also. $5 for a small cup... After that walked to Bugis Junction and check out Cotton On's sales. Bought a t-shirt with sissy, original price was at $25 each but buy 2 at the price of $20! It was damn worth. Haha. There are alot of sales going on out there, i must get a job. Argh!

Today supposed to watch Jennifer's body at sissy house with her. But she last minute not free. Sigh. Persuade Leong to go badminton but he was too tired. Never mind, shall wait until tomorrow. And i am lazy for jogging again... Damn. No i must go jogging at 6 later. Haha. I must control and not spend anymore money! Otherwise i will never get to buy the swimwear that i like. Grrrr. I need a job! Anybody recommend?

Anyway, i recieved an Edusave Merit Bursary. Yea! Congrats me. Haha. Went to Henderson CC to submit the form but never bring my mum's payslip. So i wasted my effort walking there. Sigh. Never mind, shall submit tomorrow since we are going for badminton at the same place. Shirley have it too! :) Lol.

I still have many places to go in mind.... Hmmm.......
And i hate a person alot right now. Seriously, dam pissed. Argh! And i can't believe why the hell did i befriend her in the first place. Feel like murdering her... I am not trying to be ludicrous by hating her, but she is getting overboard.

Hello! Sorry for not updating again, haha. Okay i shall only post what i remember for the past few days.



Wednesday, 18 Novemeber.

Went to school for dance practice, majority of the people did not turned up. So as a result, the remaining of us do massive stretching for the whole of 2 hours. Imagine, 30 minutes of doing split. Goodness. It's normal to get a bad muscle ache after that.

Friday, 20 November.
Went out for jogging at 6.30, wanted to go with sis. But she said she was tired, so i went alone. Jogged for 3 rounds then my muscle ache start to react strangely. Suddenly ache like mad. So jog until 7.30 then sat down and look at the view. Last time used to sit down with my brother, haha.

Saturday, 21 November.
I left my house at 1+ to sis's house, to borrow her class tshirt to wear. After that played a round of tai ti, then set off to Tiong bahru to meet florence. Florence came to pick us at 2.30. We reached Tampines West CC at around 3.30. Then walked around to helped out, and took a few o group photos. Walked around and chat with sis while waiting for the Amazing race event to start. So after we were classified to our own groups, my team have Wenjie, Nicholas, Jonathan, Florence, Wei Lin, Qi Wei, and 4 others participants whom i forgotten their names. Anyway the whole event for amazing race overall was quite fun. But it was damn tiring as we have to run around the entire Tampines West for our respective stations. But our effort paid off, because all of us did not expect us to won the second place. Haha. Got 2 cathay movie pass for free. Yeah!
After the event they organized a youth concert, people performed magics, dance and singing. And it was cool. Haha.

The event ended at around 10pm. Then went to tampines mall with weilin to get bens and jerry ice cream. After that we took the train home... Reached home at 12.

Sunday, 22 November.
Met sis at 3pm at my house downstairs and took 51 to Bugis. Went to some electronic mall to sell her DS. Then we went to approach few of the stores, and the highest offer was 60 dollars, and i started bargain with the guy at last managed to get $65. Haha. After that walked back to Bugis junction for lunch. Then took bus to Funan to buy her tablet. And it cost $159, somehow envy her courage to purchase such expensive stuffs. After Funan. took bus 63 to her house. I was playing the role as her taekwondo instructor training her. Haha. Anyway her kicks improved, congrats. After that left her house at 9+ and went to Tiong's Macs. We chat until 10+ and i reached home at 11pm.

Monday, 23 November.
Went to Tiong to rent Death note season 1 and 2 CDs with Sis. Then bought some chips and drinks at NTUC. Walked to her house and we start watching it. Watched until 10 i left and went home. Unfortunately we didn't manage to finish it. Left one more disc, so today she is coming over to finish it and we will return back together.

Finally, i am done updating. Sorry, no pictures. Haha.
Bye!

Hello everyone, yeah i know all of you have been wondering why did i privatised my blog. Well that's because i really felt like deleting my blog, because of my laziness. But i think to myself maybe privatising it for awhile would be better. Anyway, cut the crap short.

I have better things to post about, today See teng, Shirley, Poh Ee, Soojin, Pea, Alex, Leong, Jing Yu, Jia Quan organized a surprise birthday celebration in advanced for me after math remedial. At first i thought of going home after that, but somehow ended up in the classroom. I think it was part of the plan as well, perhaps. Once i entered the classroom with lights switched off, everybody start attacking me with flours. Goodness, it was so unexpected. After that i was covered with flours, my face looked so pale yet they keep asking me to take picture. Haha. But anyway, really thanks for the effort you guys made. And thanks for presents from see teng and the cakes brought by pea and shirley. I can tell that See teng spent alot of effort in the presents, there were 15 letters and 6 presents, but it was incomplete because she did not have enough time. By right she wanted to give me 15 presents as well, but it's okay by. Thanks everyone. :)

Past few days, i went to interview at a Subway outlet, the manager was not around. They said they will call the day before today, but until now still haven't. Conners. Haha. Have to go somewhere else to interview soon already.

So, have everyone out there start planning events or activities for your holiday? Like searching part time jobs, parties, shopping spree, class outings, etc. Goodness, I am so excited over the upcoming holiday. Firstly i am going to search for part time jobs to earn some money. Secondly, movies treats, indoor/outdoor games, shopping, go wild at wild wild wet, and i would like to have a crazy birthday party on my birthday. And lastly, hope caseny baby or anyone else could spend CNY drinking liquor with me! Like come on, once in a blue moon. Anyway those are just my plans, obviously i need friends who are willing to accomplish them with me.

Most importantly, i have to get a part time job and that's the top of my priority now. But i am too lazy to find one! Can't help it anyway, i am much obsessed with the show Gossip Girl now. It is really a nice show, decided to watch it now after so long ago recommended by Tiffany. I guess i really have nothing to do so i thought of it. Oh yes and, Sec 3 camp is coming, and i am not going. I am going to camp at home watching Gossip Girls perhaps. Haha.

Okay, it is getting late. Goodnight readers.

Hello everybody! I guess you guys must have misses me very much right? I am finally back to update my blog which i have forsaken for nearly 1 month. I wonder whether there are still any readers in my blog after disappearing for so long. Hmmm. I was too lazy to touch my blog for the past 1 month. Many things to update about.

Exam's finally over. Before Exam period, i was playing maple like no day no night with friends. I did not studied much, so my results weren't done so well. Before knowing my results, i was panicked like hell. Super no confident in passing, and thought that i might fail everything. But i did not! I passed English, POA, Chinese and unbelievably passed Mathematics! Goodness, it's like Maths?! A subject that i am very weak in and never passed before from primary 1 til now! I was extremely shocked, really. That's one thing. On the other hand, i was disappointed with POA, i did not scored A1. :( Or even an A2. I only got a B3 or 4. Sigh. I failed my Science, thanks to Physic i totally flunked it. And Combine humans, i got F9, wow! Thanks to the bloody miss lim, i can't be bothered to talk about it anyway. Damn.

So far, i did improved and also deproved at the same time. Wonder if i would get the chance to enter the 'Through-train' N level scheme or not. If i could, i would be extremely happy until i fly! Anyway, guess i should update til here. Otherwise i would end up writting an essay. Haha. Goodnight readers.

Something stupid happened in class today. Shirley snatched away pea's newspaper, then she put on my table. And i was like "whose?" then i put on teacher's table. After that pea behind shouted, "Hey! Give me back!" So i know it was his, and when i have the intention of giving him back, he go pull my chair. Which made me felt zz, so i decided to throw them into the bin. When i went back to my seat, he pull my chair when i was about to sit down. In the end i fell. And i started laughing until my eyes were blurry with eyes. Haha. I felt very stupid when my friends were laughing at me.

After school dismissal, went to the canteen to get some drinks. Then went back to the classroom to play the speed undercover game with Shirley and pea. Shirley and me played until so exciting that we keep yelling and shouting vulgarities. After that went up to IT Resource room to report for the Chinese Oral Exam. Until my name was called out, it was my turn to prepare first. And i'd got like 2 or 3 words unsure with. When it was my turn to present my reading to the teacher, i totally screwed up. Firstly, i was nervous because i have no confident at all. Secondly, the soccer players at ground floor was super disruptive. Whenever they shout once, i stunned. Which caused me to read wrong words and presented my reading skill badly. Argh. I thought i would do well for Conversation. But didn't know the teacher was so smart and i did not expected so many chim questions.
Teacher : "If you have a choice between 'Agent' and (I don't know) which one would you choose? (I totally have no idea what were both of the jobs that she mentioned in Chinese)
Me : (I know i have to say something even though i don't know what are they) Agent.
Teacher : "Hmmm, why?"
Me : (How the fuck i know?! Ah! ) Hmm because it is easier to handle.
Teacher : (Gave me a face that she know i dont know what is it and smile) In what way it is easy to handle? What does Agent does?"
Me : (Totally stunned.)
And we skipped the question

So, i hope the teacher would at least give me a just-pass. After the oral ended, slack in the canteen while waiting for the rain to stop. Then See teng, pea and I headed to Great world for lunch. See teng and me can't have a proper meal, because we were busy laughing over Pea's humour. I am still thinking about the "Wow, the chicken know how to dance." and "Now the chicken can do stun sia!" mentioned by pea. (Inside joke). Damn. It was hilarious but felt annoyed at the same time. Haha.

Study tomorrow! Yeay, shall take an opportunity to "mug" like some hardworking student tomorrow. :) Goodnight.